So, here we are in mid-April trying to play catch-up with each other. It’s been a roller coaster of a life since the last post but all’s well. I’ve been off the Beachbody wagon for many reasons but with the wedding just around the corner, an adjustment is imperative! The dress is hanging in my closet (a beautiful deep pink/magenta satin number) & it still fits, mercifully. I start back up with ChaLean Extreme next week after my trek up to PA to visit some girlfriends. I suspect there will be a few no-no meals during that weekend so I’ll be back at the workout with a vengeance. I’ve been eating way too much candy…until now when I realized this body can’t handle that much sugar & still function with vigor. Twizzlers and M&Ms, I’ll miss you L
Anyhow, back to some recent thoughts. My life turned upside down when I decided to enter a treatment center in February. It was the best decision I ever made which turned into the best month of my life, truly. I learned some valuable lessons & gained some tools to navigate my new life with less anxiety, fear, & adverse consequences. Some of my friends & family members aren’t keen on the New & Improved MO but hopefully they’ll eventually be able to tolerate her at least. I don’t relate in the predictable way I used to. That bothers some people but I like it. My new friends have proved to be essential in my recovery & I suspect they will be lifelong friends from here on out. Other relationships are tricky…I’m not doing too well in that department.
On another bright side, I’ve been out on several photo safaris & have come back with some fairly good snapshots. I’ll be out in the wilderness next week to catch some Springtime scenes. I really need to learn more about the camera before the wedding. If the weather is cooperative, the wedding will be outside so I’m hoping my forays in the next few weeks will give me the experience I need to capture some beautiful pix as my eldest walks down the aisle. There will lots of wonderful subjects…relatives & friends I haven’t seen for too long. I always love looking into the eyes of relatives & see our common ancestors. And to observe them to see how we all move, speak, look like each other. Gene pools are extremely interesting! For the most part there’s no denying my heritage and I’m ok with that…mostly! We’ll see if the feeling is reciprocated :-/
So where am I going from this day forward? Not sure. But it will be a good journey. There will be some fallout, already has been, but through diligence & desire for a better life, there’s no doubt I’ll be ok. Some of you will come along with me, others won’t. But, I’m going anyhow.
